Fighters

It’s as if I had never known love
It had always seemed like a privilege to me
A luxury that I had always been so afraid to want

‘Cause I know all too well
That such luxury always comes at a price
And I had not known whether I could ever afford it

But then you came along so fearlessly
Tearing down the stone walls I had built so high
No one had ever had the courage to even come near it

I let you inside the dark cave where I had been hiding
The only thing I could never give to anyone
The only thing I could never live without

You took my hands and waited patiently
Letting me face my own fears and demons
That had me in the dark for so long

So that night, I set myself free
You made me want to believe that for once
I am too worthy of love

The Best of Both Worlds

From where I stood I saw
Houses made of steel
Surrounded by wire fences
Grass cold and barren

Streets empty and silent
Tiny footsteps haunting at night
The witch killed himself
And attended his own funeral

Concrete walls painted white
Vigilantes buried down under
Nothing left behind but names
And grieving mothers

Breaking news on repeat
The big guy on the screen looking mad
Swearing in four different languages
Giving us the middle finger

Escapees on the run
Chasing after discounted freedom
Abandoned on the store shelves
Among rotten crackers and canned sardines

Leaflets of a little girl went missing flooded the streets
People stopped searching
They knew it all too well
What’s once lost would never be found

…

But the view was different on the other side

An elderly couple looking out of the window
Safe in their mega mansion
Their grandsons on the trampoline
Every jump shaking the ceiling

The rich got richer by the second
Selling overpriced oxygen in some green tanks
Everything was commodified
Even the Capitalists never saw it coming

Nothing else mattered
Nobody listened to the music anymore
The cinemas were now haunted
By the ghosts of the past

From where I stood I saw
Two different worlds
Where I belonged to
Neither of them

How the Night Ended

The rain stopped London in its track
The lights turned up, blinding our eyes
The streets full of laughters and kisses
Floating in the crisp air

Our feet wandering aimlessly
Taking us to every corner in West End
Where nights seemed to never end
And nobody seemed to want to go home
Well, neither of us wanted to

So we kept making wrong turns
Walking away from the busy Underground
Where the place was always too crowded
Always too fast, too furious
What’s the rush? We had all the time in the world

We slipped away when nobody was looking
Towards the empty Holborn streets
Where nobody could hear us talk endlessly
Making plans as if we would live forever
Leaving behind our footprints in the concrete sidewalks
That will stay there no matter how many years pass by

One more turn and we would pass by King’s Cross station
Where everyone was rushing to catch the train home
We, too, almost reached home
Dreading the last minutes because we did not want the night to end
Dragging our feet while walking hand in hand

The clock struck twelve as we arrived at the gate
Right when the night started to lose its magic
And so that was how the night ended
That was how our nights always ended
With you carrying me on your back
Carrying me home

I’ve made a promise to myself
to always wear my heart on my sleeve,
no matter what.

Tick-tock

Breathless as we ran
against the pebbles and rocks
racing towards the beach
our bodies in the sand

Tireless as we walked
under the scorching sun
waiting for the bus to come
your arms as my shades

Fearless as we swam
in the turquoise ocean of my dreams
swaying with the waves
our laughter filled the air

Endless as we daydreamed
of the blissful life ahead
watching the sunset
your breath rhymes with mine

Tick-tock

Tick-tock

Tick-tock

Clueless…
as we lost track of the time
and forgot the way home
the night had fallen
our days were numbered

 

 

 

Abstinence

Sobriety is such an illusion
Glorified and romanticised
Just like how sovereignty is a total bullshit
No King was ever sober enough
Swearing by their chastities
Only to lose the empires to a decoy

Bring in the humour!
I’d rather die from laughter
‘Cause the world has too many invisible rules
We’re too busy begging for scraps
Giving in to the Hunger
That comes at us day and night

I’ll stay awake and wake the Rooster
Before we all get too comfortable
Sleeping on the cold floor
Crouching like a fetus
‘Cause we only have our Mother and her mercy
to this undeserving world we live in

Berlariku dengan gontai
Payah kakiku ini
Larimu cepat sekali
“Tunggu aku!”, teriakku lirih
Kuseret kakiku tertatih-tatih
Peluhku deras di dahi
Aku mengernyit tipis
Perih pelupuk ini
“Tunggu!”
Badai bersorak-sorai
Sahutku tak berarti
Tapi larimu seketika terhenti
Kau ulurkan tanganmu tuk ku gapai
Kutelan semua nyali
Jarak ini tak abadi
Kalaupun sampai mati
Janjiku sama sampai saat ini
Aku akan kembali
Ke tangan ini
Ke rumah ini

 

Aku akrab dengan gelapnya malam
yang suka berpura-pura bisu dan buta
menutup mata rapat-rapat dan diam seribu kata
tak tega membiarkan aku menanggung malu
yang suka berpura-pura kuat dan tegar
menutup mata rapat-rapat dan diam seribu kata

Tapi malam ini aku sudah berdamai
dengan takdir yang tak selalu baik
memaafkan mereka yang kusayang
tapi yang tak selalu sempurna
dan berjanji untuk tak berhenti percaya
bahwa ada yang Maha Baik dan Sempurna

 

 

Dan yang aku ingin tahu…
kemana perginya air mataku yang tak tumpah?

 

 

 

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